she will bee remembered

I don't know how people move on after the loss of someone they love. 

In this case, it was one of the most amazing dogs. Her name was Kyla. She was my sister's husky. She was so intuitive, funny, smart, caring and adamant when it came to her letting us know when she had to go outside and when she was thirsty. 

She suffered from seizures and was on medications to try and contain them. She had gotten into the trash and later on in the month started showing signs of pancreatitis. She ended up passing away from it. It all happened so fast.

My sister was pregnant and Kyla was always near her side. We took her announcement  pictures with Kyla and never thought she wouldn't be around when we took the newborn pictures.

This was what my sister posted shortly after:

After a week of living in the house with no Kyla, Patrick and I have learned a few things. Here is what she would be saying right now: 1. "Yes I strategically placed all those squeaky tennis balls in hidden places for you to get a smile during the week. Makes vacuuming under the couch more of a fun thing right!?"2. "I bet you are using a lot less kitchen hand towels to clean up my water I would drip after I drank my whole bowl down in 2 mins.... You're welcome"3. "The only purpose for your sliding glass doors was to let me out to see the world which brings me to #4..."4. "I know cleaning off my nose prints on those doors was the hardest thing you had to do, and it made you cry, but there was nothing like pressing my wet nose to them when I greeted the neighbors dog or just needed the extra closeness to the outside."5. "Miss my breath yet!?"6. "I know that you feel lonely in the mornings when you wake up, but I hope you know you guys were just the best and I loved you very much."7. "Don't be sad that I didn't get to meet the lil baby, I will always be watching over him and I knew from the very beginning that he was there, why do you think I stayed by your side?"8. "And yes it is true that one day when he runs down the hall and says, 'Mom, I'm playing with that puppy... It is me and I love him too."9. "It's easier to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night now cuz you don't have to worry about stepping on my ever changing sleeping position." 
10. "When the doc asked you on Tuesday if you were still running, it's ok that you got sad and told her you weren't sure when you would run again. Just know that you will and I will be by your side 'mushing' you up that hill like always."
11."I love you."  

I know more reminders will pop up but those were the ones we conquered this week and dang it she was so special.

Its been a few months but nothing can mask the pain we still feel. 

She was my Elliott's best friend. I wish I could tell him and know that he comprehends what I'm saying. Recently I was plugging my computer into the TV to watch a show and Kyla is on my lock screen. He saw it and stared and whined. 

 

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It's crazy to see the bond between two animals. They never lived together
but they were around each other enough to love one another. When we would say "Where's Elliott?" Kyla would either look at the door or window. Elliott would whine and look around for her. 

When my sister had her baby she always thought Kyla would tell her when she was going into labor

because she was so protective of her and in tune with my sister and how she felt. I brought Elliott up there and during our visit (when she was due with Oliver) and he ran around the house and whined. He then moped around and wouldn't eat or anything. It was sad because I was watching him mourn her loss. He just expected her to be there.. and she wasn't. We got his spirits up eventually but you can still tell there is a void that cannot be filled. 

We thought that my sister having the baby would help with that void but it hasn't. Its kind of a reminder that she isn't there like we thought she would be. My sister is having to deal with the visions she had about what Kyla would be like with Oliver. 

They always went running together. They were partners. They would go running during her pregnancy until she wasn't able to anymore. Tiffany would tell Kyla (as she moped around restlessly) that they would have the best run after she had the baby and was clear to run again. This week my sister was cleared and as happy as she was to hear that news... it was that much harder to think of running without her and the promise she can't fulfill now. 

I don't really know what I want from posting this.. because it seems so depressing writing it all out. Maybe one day I will be able to help someone else through their loss.

She is always in our hearts and will always live on through our memories.

Here are some of our favorite pictures of Kyla :)

If love could have kept you here, you would have lived forever.